June 29, Merrimac.
As I interviewed Father Jerry yesterday we came upon the subject of the prejudice circus people suffer in the eyes of society outside the circus, or "townies," as we say. It reminded me of several episodes I had decided to brush off over the past months, and one in particular just last week in Berkley.
The circus was next to the library so the kids and I went to our favorite hangout beside the whoop as soon as we could. Sister Jo was there too, using the internet. When she saw me she smiled and whispered that the librarians were not so happy about our being here, and indeed they were as unwelcoming as they could be short of being rude. Then as I was talking to a Mom while her kids and mine played together in the children's section, the instant I mentioned I was from the circus she turned around and left so fast I didn't have time to realized she was gone.
There was also the time a few weeks ago when a post office clerk in a small Maryland mountain village, unaware that I was from the circus (the point exactly, isn't it?) told me to be careful because there were "going to be a lot of people today," hinting that we had better protect ourselves, and presumably our properties, from "those" people. I felt strangely violated, yet incredulous.
Father Jerry mentioned ignorance as the main culprit for this widespread prejudice. Most probably it is, hand in hand with ignorance, a distrust, sometimes even a fear, of traveling people of all kinds, the Gypsies of Eastern Europe, the carnival and circus people of Western Europe, the nomads of Northern Africa, as ancient and ingrained as the traditions of traveling people themselves.
The eternal
other amongst us has many faces and it is always our own (I is another, said
Rimbaud, the French poet.) It looks back at us from the other side of the world, the other side of the street, the other side of the prison walls; it is the mad, the homeless, it is the migrant, the circus hand; it is me. Circus people, with their generous, suspicious cultural and ethnic diversity, their bohemian mobility, and the unimaginable feats they perform, exemplify that otherness, layer after layer, to picture-perfection.
They also exemplify its inherent contradiction, its absurdity, our own folly.
Mariana and Gordo walking up to the altar.
I is another.